My friend pissed me off so much and I was angry for soooo long that I just wanted a million bongs to calm down but I didn't so I figure I'm in control

5 hours sleep.....plus 11 hours work.... and I got crazy angry today .......1st time in 12 days I wanted a bong just to calm down and I was angry for a good 4 hrs. ....... had a slug of fireball wiskey just to take the crazy down a peg.....

Only screamed 'indicate' to a few drivers today.... and I'm too tired to be angry but so grumpy though..... effort able

No constant weird dreams yet...... one a few days ago but nothing I can remember as yet.....managed to go to a smoker friends house yesterday and still not have one or have to talk myself out of it all the time (ruminate) but did have a few drinks maybe just to make sure or to participate in some sort of un-sobering

Starting to realize maybe I'm just a bitch and the weed is not making me angry and I just get there myself

Received drug saliva test but it didn't work so I neither passed or failed which was a bit unnerving I think I was inquisitive to see results. .......I'm a bit dumb today as I'm exhausted but getting suckie sleep so everything is a bit slow and forgetful. ......but I was on fire at softball last night quicker reflexes and stuff.... never give up giving up.....this time has been easier again......but only cause I how what the withdrawal symptoms are.

Just feel down can't get on top of it, feel like I'm digging a bottomless hole, I need to dig out some stairs.....

I worked and played softball ......hardest time are coming home what to relax to and sleep

I wish I wasn't such a slave to weed. I'm always tired and cranky. It's like the more I smoke the more I need and the more tired it makes me but I'm just can't seem to get away from it... I need to quit just to wake up.

Dreamt of chopping up