I feel so shitty at everything and everyone. The thing that scares me the most is I feel I can't be sober. At all. Like I give up one vice and then I pick up two more, replacing weed with nicotine, and being stoned with being drunk. I hate drinking, I hate alcohol. But sobriety seems worse. How do people do it, how do they go each day sober? I don't want to be stuck with my thoughts or feelings all the time. What if I end up alcoholic instead of just a stoner? I'd rather be a stoner. Still no weed,though I desperately just want to be stoned.