Today I collapsed. Not physically but mentally. I told myself that I won t smoke today yet I was the only kid in my year tempted enough to miss lesson, ring a dealer and sort out a draw. I feel exhausted. My siblings have so much excess energy, yet I feel so drained. I just want to stop it all. I know I can t stop forever, but I want to at least stop till summer, which is like 4 months away. I want to go cold turkey because I believe that would be the best way to break a habit.