Posted 01 September 2016 by Yo
I've been smoking since I was 13, I'm now 17, I also like to mix alcohol and occasionally do mdma, I only put spin in my weed as a treat once a week, I'm mostly green, this cocktail has turned my way of thinking inside out, I see strange patterns with numbers and time, my very name spins me the fuck out because it describes what I am, ~(an addict)~ I know that if someone reads this it won't make much sense, but not much makes sense to me anymore, this reality seems bogus and extremely farfetched... yet it's not all bad, I've found wonderful things in this crazy world and this crazy train of thought takes me places not many go...my advice is if you want too tread this path, walk carefully and respectfully,,,
Posted 29 August 2016 by Mathew
Well this has been a bit of a roller coaster ride. But usually when I get up in the morning the first thing I think about is hittin my hash oil vape pen. Once, I've done that the door has been opened to keeping the cannabanoid doors open and I'm stoned all day. Sometimes though, I can hold off until the end of the day but then I feel super rushed to get home so that I can smoke. This is causing some issues. By the end of my work day if I don't smoke, I start to lose concentration and all I can think about is going home and getting high. This becomes my primary motivation. I will sometimes go home for "lunch" and have a smoke or will stop by home throughout the day to grab some weed or smoke some. This is obviously a problem because it means that I go out of my way and waste time just for a little weed buzz. Once high my productivity goes way down as my confidence drops a bit with work when I'm high, but hey! I got a buzz on. Anyway, lately I've come to realize that weed doesn't actually benefit me in any way I'd like it too. It just makes me feel like it's doing me well. I've cut down over the past few days and haven't smoked at all today and only 1 puff yesterday. I'm ready! I have quit before but then picked it back up about a month later. I'm ready again and kind of know what to expect. It's always down the road after a few weeks when I think I'm fine that I'll have a puff then I'm back to smoking daily. Abstinence is really flipping hard to achieve but I'm gathering as much support and journaling and reading past journals when I was successful. Hopefully, I can make this time the last time I need to quit.
Posted 25 August 2016 by Ashley
Was irritable this morning but potentially for different reasons. Around midday I felt fine all the way through to this evening; it's now 10pm. I hope I sleep better than last night. This weekend im going away to France so I don't think I'll be able to smoke therefore no temptation. I'm going to Nicaragua in 2 months for 2 weeks, I wish I was there now so I could pass the time quicker and not be at home with temptation. I still have about 1/4 left and it's right there on my bookshelf. And no, I ain't gonna throw that away. I will get baked again, but not for a long while.
Posted 24 August 2016 by Ashley
Because I'm too old for this and I don't want to drag my partner into this - he is way too smart
Posted 25 August 2016 by Rik
Been off it for a week and felt like rewarding myself with weed a long process to stay clean ....must stay strong
Posted 26 July 2016 by Alicia McCurdy
Is that meant to be a pun...... bud(dy).... bahahaha..... anyways how are you going with it......promise I'll start soon
Posted 26 July 2016 by Tara valerius
I feel like I am normal again doing normal things not relying on anything to comfort me
Posted 25 August 2016 by Ellie
Insomnia is hitting me at full force
Posted 26 July 2016 by Stacey
Posted 23 July 2016 by Alison Firth
I had my last bit of Booner last night and I almost had to force it down .. I was determined to smoke the rest and make myself sick of it ... I went to the pub though even though I was a bit stoned and managed to converse.. But it's much better straight ..go girl.. This is it.. NO MORE BOONER!!